what i want?
I want someone who’s going to shut up when my favorite song comes on. My favorite sappy, romantic song because they know how much i want to live every single word of it.
I want someone who’s going to sit down and read a poetry book with me, Or just grab it and start reading to me because its my favorite book.
I want someone who’s going to make my personal success just as important as i make theirs to mine and push them to their goals.
I want someone to push me to go work out and attain my goals. Someone to encourage me and tell me in my ear don’t fucking give up, now get out their and fucking do it.
I want someone to be understanding.
I want someone to realize that we live for each other now. its time to grow up and that you can always make your family happy bc they are living for you or in your life living it with you just like you aren’t in theirs. An know “its ok time, there’s plenty of time.”
I want someone to kiss me on the forehead and adore me and tell me sweet nothings everyday.
I want someone to want to have fun with me. go outside, discover shop downtown or stores. Uncover territory or simply just lay and sit on my lap while read a good book.
I want someone to want to trace their fingers down the small of my back and trace them back up because they are in awe of my skin.
Most of all i want to be appreciated and important.
I fucking want that.
And to the person who knows who there are there is seriously something wrong with you for me to keep feeling this way.
"If you’re gonna bail, bail early. This applies to relationships, college classes, and sledding,"
Over a new with anew place. A place I can utilize skills, feel good about myself and apply myself. I wish i could do that with my relationship…
"What defines us is how well we rise, after falling"
Maid in manhattan
May the love in my own story never be tame, but wild and fierce. May it sometimes be unexplainable beyond just these words: This is MY heart. And it wants certain things And I’ve wasted to long of a time saying sorry for that.
NEVER BE TAME.
[I think a man should honor that with all his worth added to hers]
#not what you want
#not getting what you need
I would like to say my life was a dream come true. I made a choice on the best decision of my life. The truth is, it’s been the hardest. Its been the most challenging, lonliest and rawest circustances I choose for myself.
Honestly, I dont know, or rather, think it was right for me to make this choice. I mean, when I think about the growth aspect of it I wouldn’t have ever learned or grew if I hadn’t expirienced what I had. I learned a lot about myself due to another person and I am very grateful for it.I learned the most beautiful parts of me. The ugliest things about me and I realized what I need to change. I would have never been made into a better woman if he hadn’t come into my life.A part me doesn’t want this to end but another part thats becomming greater everyday is saying its enough.
This little voice inside me says, “You know what you want. You’ve known it for a while.”
I am foolish to think that fear, and doubt and insecuirites will ever be able to fully hide it from the parts of me that want it so much. It’s there and im not going to ignore it anymore. It’s there.
Sure it will be a scary move. It’s scary to take a risk, again. But thats life isn’t it? Isn’t that life? I shouldn’t be afraid
that voice says “Darling, you already know what your heart wants so bad.”
You could keep him there forever. You really could. They make movies out of those kinds of stories.The “ones that got away.” But your fists clenching rocks of what-used-to-be eventually defeats the purpose of two hands that were created to throw blessings in barren places.
Stop looking at the world and look down at your own two hands. People will tell you how to drown your tears in chocolate ice cream. They will tell you how to get bitter and seek revenge. They will tell you how to get smaller and smaller and burn the belongings of another to ashes to make you feel like you have let them go. but no one spills out the secretest secret of them all: to let things go, really let them go, open up your hands and bless others by the fistful.
By then they will be a long gone memory that way and you will be free as the bird you were intended to be.
(Source: IMOBILIZOU, via impulsive-and-inlove)
I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human
I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that’s what you need
Be your everything
I can take so much
‘Til I’ve had enough